Out Of The Fog
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“Derive happiness in oneself from a good day’s work, from illuminating the fog that surrounds us.”
— Henri Matisse
The view outside my window this morning is foggy. It rolled in overnight and left the whole world shrouded in gray. I like my Mondays to be sunny and clear, probably because it gives me a good feeling about looking into the week ahead. Instead, my bed felt cozy this morning, and I actually hit the snooze button on my alarm clock. Like a caterpillar, I nestled into my fog cocoon and convinced myself that it was not yet time to emerge. The transformation would require a few extra minutes of sleep today. Soon the alarm declared that my rest was done, so I pulled on my jeans and sneaks and stepped out into the muffled mist of morning.
My traveling companion, grand-dog Patches, sniffed the air and then licked at it, trying to drink in the moisture. He could feel it, too — the half-air/half-water cloud that swirled and rolled around us as we walked. I looked down at my own arm to assure myself that I was not invisible, but even my own body seemed to lose its boundaries as I swam through the haze. Only my feet, touching down on the familiar path through the park, reminded me that I was out of my bed and moving through a new day.
How often, I wondered, do we begin a new day in this same way? Whether the fog is tangible and real or simply a figment of our imaginations, how often do we see our days as changeless and colorless and unremarkable? How often do our feet strike out on an all-too-familiar path, pulling us along half-awake and unaware of anything exciting that might be happening around us?
We must bring our own light to the fog, whether it is held in a hand as we make our way through the early-morning mist or whether it shines from the heart and sheds brightness on the unremarkable day that calls us to get up and walk. I waited all the way around my morning path, but the sun still was hidden when I stepped across the threshold and into the warmth of my home. I raised my hands to my hair and touched the droplets that had landed there. Running my hands over my arms, I warmed them as the moisture began to disappear. I wiped my shoes on the welcome mat and shook my shoulders, bringing my body into wakefulness. Only then did I notice that I had grown the most beautiful wings.
